Sunday, December 4, 2016

Deliverance Ministries: Preying on the Vulnerable, Ill and Broken Hearted

This article is a continuation of these....the two articles I wrote on Betrayal. In these articles I mention being abused by a false deliverance person I thought was a friend.  I am going to go more in detail about deliverance ministries without naming names.


  Betrayal II 

 One thing I learned about this world, is people don't have to get money from you to prey on you. There's sociopaths and others who want to play with your mind for the sheer thrill of it. Once I was trying to publish a book on a secular topic, I went to a bookstore in a larger town and met the owner. I knew he held writing classes. I lived too far away to take any and he knew this. He pretended he had an "in road" in book publishing, because of his writing class connections. It seemed legit. My husband is a writer and worked in newspapers before they folded. I had my husband to edit thing professionally so the quality of the writing was good. I handed him some chapters from my book. This guy said he would help me get it published. Two months later he told me, a big publisher was interested in the book. I was excited. He told me he would send me the details soon.

 A week later he died, no email had been sent. I tried to get information from his widow as to the deal he had supposedly made, but she had no answers which seemed very suspicious to me. I contacted another student in his writing classes I knew of, and he told me, that he had promised him a book deal too. After some research and figuring things out and the widow's in put, we realized we all had been "had".

I said, "Why did he do this, he had no money to make from me"? The other student said, "He must have wanted the attention and to feel important." 

 There's a lot of self appointed experts out there. Many of them are liars.

Even writing this blog, I have told people I am not an expert just an ordinary person. Don't look to me like some guru, I don't want people following me, I want them following Jesus Christ and checking out His Word. I want them to think about some of the nonsense they are all trying to fool us with. Check things out for yourself and check everything out I write here too. I am not some icon of perfection. You will not find a Martha Stewart set table. My apartment is messy now because I have been sick for two days but I was able to help my husband with grocery shopping yesterday and still have to put my clothes away he washed.

 However some love to claim they are experts and icons of perfection.

 Let's call them Deliverance Ministers. 

 Deliverance Ministry is wrong on one basic principle, it puts another human being in a "priest-hood" position over another. 

This doesn't mean I deny the existence of demons or anything else Deliverance Ministries claim they are going to help people with. God's help is enough. I want you to imagine the power-games between those who are supposedly icons of goodness and perfection, and the "non-demonized" and the "demonized" people these people all claim they want to help. 

 I have a rare medical disorder that has physically deformed me and caused endless medical havoc. I can't even name it here, because it would put my anonymity at risk, because it is that rare and "weird". It was a 1 in 5 million lightening strike. Several other autoimmune disorders came with it, including impending deafness and I am still losing hearing to this day.  This made me vulnerable to someone's promises of healing.

It took the doctors over a decade to fully diagnose me. At one point in 2013, I had nurses begging me to go to Mayo while I received nursing care for a wide variety of problems.  I then managed to get diagnosed. The desperately ill are often desperate for healing. I have been disabled for over 20 years. I have suffered a lot. These health problems led to rejection even from my own wicked family because illness held me back from things. In my earlier life I held an art education degree and an art teaching job at a juvenile home and as a residential counselor. Even then because I did not make a 6 figure salary, I was deemed a failure among my better off family.

 This made me vulnerable. Some of the deliverance ministries will claim, that they do not believe in the prosperity gospel, but the prosperity gospel undergirds much of their teachings.

 Their basic teachings are that , if one is sick or having financial problems, that means there is some undealt with "sin" or "curse" in their lives instead of just being in this fallen world. It seems to me if bad things like illness and poor finances mean sin, that means better financial situations and health means "goodness". Talk about taking the American prosperity gospel to it's utmost zenith.

 On this point alone, these deliverance ministers prey on the vulnerable, the ill and the broken hearted. Add in the American culture's insistence that one always work on "self improvement" and "fixing" your life and it is a recipe for disaster. 

Be careful of anyone who promises miracles or healing.  They are all liars. They don't always charge money, sometimes they just want your soul.  Our culture sets up people to seek for answers in THIS WORLD. They tell you that happiness must be found here.

 Deliverance ministers present themselves as having all the answers. Often they are wealthier, more socially stable and accepted people who get a feeling of power over the vulnerable and those in lower socioeconomic and status positions in society. I believe they are dangerous. Christians need to stay away from deliverance ministers. 

I have yet to meet a "real one". I wrote on the betrayal articles how I ran into problems with a deliverance minister. When I started this blog, I met her, she too warned of the NWO and other things I talked about online as well.  We started up a friendship. She was someone I could talk about these things too. There was many years I cared about her as a friend so this is some painful stuff.  One danger of the Internet is it is not the same as knowing someone as in real life. Many of my commenters here talk about how no one understands around them and it is so rare to find someone to talk about these deeper Christian issues. Let me warn you of something, most are fakes out there. They corral anyone who dares to think independent. In this relationship, it would be normal friendly email for many years and then we started talking on the phone.

She told me she did deliverance. I questioned a lot of it along the way, but thought, "Well more prayer can't hurt!"  That was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Here deliverance ministry becomes like Catholic confession. Deliverance people want to know every detail of your life. 

 I was told that my life would improve if I made sure I renounced every occultic and other involvement earlier in my life. As people who have read this blog know since I have admitted it all, I was a Unitarian-Universalist Theosophist, I dabbled in Wicca, numerology, Ouija, seances and astrology. I never went into deeper branches of magick and the occult, but studied and read about it. I visited psychics especially in the early days of illness. I of course grew up Roman Catholic too.

 This person got me to believe that I needed to deal with these things in prayers. I had renounced them all, literally throwing away witchcraft and astrology books when I got saved. I was supposed to list all these things, it was a long list and pray over each and every one of these things with them. At the time I did not see this as a problem. I certainly wanted "freed" from all the spiritual and other effects, these things would have had on my life. Because my illnesses were so extreme in symptoms and in number, I wanted any help I could get. I am still surprised I made it through 2013. Doctors even in 2008 told me I had only a short time to live.

 I've talked to others who have been with deliverance ministries, and they want a full synopsis of your life. A long list of things you did wrong, and things other people did to you. They delve into past histories of abuse, physical and other, dysfunctional families, any past occult involvements, and traumas. Some will fool you even worse pretending to be vulnerable themselves and to elicit your natural empathy while they hold no empathy themselves and will tell you their own traumas and abuses.  

This is just like today's modern pyschologists and counselors but without the legal protections and natural boundaries, they want to know it all. They are like a Catholic priest listening to your deepest darkest secrets, and making a literal list. Here the broken-hearted, sick, and lonely, can be prey, because they are often people who are more lonely and lack attention from others. For some of the most vulnerable, they can sneak in even more. My husband protected me from the worse. He would question it all. She talked to him on the phone, he saw her as a "friend" of mine and a nice person too but when the full weirdness got into full swing, he was as shocked and dismayed as I was.

God also protected me too. He sent me dreams warning me about this person to the point I had no point but to listen. There was a long long time, I "knew" she was false, but was too scared to break away because I wanted to keep my anonymity intact when it came to this blog. I had shared some very personal things with her and her supposedly with me too.

I have already paid some heavy prices for this blog, in terms of lost friendships and other life pressures. I do believe at least four trojan horse online "friendships" have been sent me for this blog. I never expected that. This not a huge blog. I do not have the academic and other credentials, to make it professional. Even with the writing, I only have time for quick edits and it is far from perfect. I am always behind on answering comments and emails. Sometime I do think about shutting down the blog because of all the troubles and worries that have come with it, but God has said "No" for now. There are times I think I have run out of things to write about and then think it is time to stop and then that changes. I have many new topics now to explore.

Even to this day I wonder why I was so extremely targeted. The only thing I can come up with is that I majorly stepped on some toes in some heavy articles especially from some years ago. Maybe it was when I questioned Calvary Chapel or maybe when I exposed the Whosoevers. There's tons of conspiracy and discernment blogs online. Maybe when a real person does one, who is sincere, they go for broke making sure only to have controlled ops in on the game.

 I hope I can help others though, in sharing what happened to me.  This is not an easy article to write. Yes I am embarrassed to have let this spiritual abuser in. Some may ask where was your discernment. Oh it was there, but out of loneliness, I kept wanting this person to be real. I wanted someone "real" to talk about the heavy issues I was learning about and discussing. I already had removed three trojan horses from my life where I had PM, phone and online contact, and there was part of me in denial about there being yet another one. I actually thought, "There can't be a fourth, someone has to be a real friend, there's gotta to be someone like you out there who sees some of these same things!" What a mistake that was!

 It could have been much worse, if there wasn't always a little voice standing back saying "Something is wrong here". She seemed like a nice person. I thought of her as my friend. She helped me even buying me a dress or two and once helping with some groceries when we came up short one month. I thought she was someone who truly cared about me as a person. I emailed her and had other correspondence with her for several years without a problem. It was a supportive long distance friendship. We just emailed for many years and phone contact came in later. We did a shared Bible study on the phone. I am often housebound and the companionship was something I sought after.   In many ways she was kind, helpful and thoughtful during those years giving me comfort and sharing prayers while I was sick but then when she started the "deliverance" talk that was the beginning of the end.

 What is weird, is I would debate with her. I did not agree with her theology of "curses". She told me she did "deliverance work" with other people and I knowing very little about it, thought, "Well more prayer can only help" so I said Ok.  She told me she had experience helping very ill people and the abused find healing. I was also separating from my family around this time which added another challenge to the whole mess.  They hated me for being a Christian and this grew in scope. I am related to the gay family I wrote about.  They are cousins. The anger over me posting the gospel on my Facebook wall and standing for the things I did grew stronger.  At that time I did not know that three members of the family had become homosexuals or that my mother was in on it before they all "came out" which they did on Facebook. The family was reacting scarily.  One cousin even called me to threaten me. This was not from posting anything against homosexuality directly but even just for posting gospel messages and bible verses.

Deliverance is a giant mistake. I cannot emphasize this enough. Spiritually, I was letting someone else step in to be a "mediator" between God and me. I renounce all deliverance ministries, as "priests" trying to get control over someone else's life and the domain of the prideful who think they have all the answers and that anyone who does not reach their idea of "perfection" is supposed to be "fixed" by them. Here American ideals of self improvement, prosperity gospel and Calvinist success marry into a rotting stinking stew. Stay away from anyone who wants to "fix" you. Isn't that 90 percent of preachers out there now? Where ousting out "sin" is a self improvement program. It is very painful to me, that I was seen as another "fix-it"project by someone else who never saw me as a real friend. There's some heavy burdens here where I feel immense pressures as a disabled and poor person in American society who has been deemed "unacceptable".

 Deliverance ministries are often racist and classist in foundation. They seek after people of lower status in American society to "fix". Many prideful women seeking after religious status, fall into the "busy-body" trap. One sees this in churches. I got a stomachache even at the church where I left the bible study where the women there remarked on often poorer relatives and friends who did not have their "lives together".  Most seemed to lack decent paying employment instead of having any real faults. I cringed thinking what must they think of me walking on this walker and not having vacations, home decor and other things to brag about.  I felt alone.

 1 Timothy 5:13 - And withal they learn [to be] idle, wandering about from house to house; and not only idle, but tattlers also and busybodies, speaking things which they ought not. 

 Be very careful of busy-bodies out there. I was afraid a long time because I had shared a lot with this person. I kept some boundaries up but let too many down as she 'shared' too. I am law-abiding and boring, I don't have any sexual past--my first love was my husband, or anything crazy for someone to use. At this point Satan's enemies have dug so deep I don't think they would have anything else to find out. A lot of the trojan horses first order of business was to influence me. One tried to sell Calvary Chapel to me, one told me Roger Oakland was the real deal. This one I think more and more just wanted to destroy me. 

 I have met others hurt by "busy-body" church women who pretend to care, and are information gatherers and then do the back stabbing. Deliverance ministers are often legalists. They see "god" as someone who will throw you overboard for the slightest transgression. Forget a head covering [this was something I did not agree with], then God will be angry. This one taught extreme fasting that was impossible for my health but I thought would be damaging to any normal person. Listen to one secular song, then hell and more demons await.

I wrote her emails I still have copies of where I wrote her saying "you are becoming too obsessed with demons and you have become too legalistic." She told me, things like you haven't had enough deliverance. In deliverance, I have noticed nothing is ever good enough, and the rules and hoop-jumping just got raised.

 They will tell you so much time has taken for damage to be done, and well we need time to "deliver" you. Of course one notices that nothing is changing for the better and they raise the goal posts at every step. For people of lesser faith, this could be a clear path into falling away which maybe was the intention all along? I think. It got to the point where this person actually acted and spoke like she was speaking for God Himself. Run like the wind if you ever encounter anyone like this.

 I stuck it in there with her, even worrying she had become sick and mentally ill and the duty of a friend was to have forebearance, so there was a lot of times I listened and was nice, and kept my real thoughts aside and I should have just walked away for good.  At those times I think she was being overtaken by NWO studies and other life issues and hopefully would be able to calm down and get to a better place. One thing about wicked people is they will take advantage of love, attachment and other feelings normal people have for one another that they lack. 

Instead I basically had a wolf in my midst doing great damage. It has taken me a year to even dare to write about what happened to me.

 I once told her in an email, "I pray God will free you of the superstitions. When someone knows about some conspiracies or how the world really operates and how evil it truly is with the endless betrayals, the pitfalls are endless. Satan can make you go all sorts of places" 

My husband was so upset at her talk of curses, he would tell me, "She used to be so nice, what is wrong with her?" He told me she acted like Skipper being afraid of the Tikki statue on Gilligan's Island. Her talk of witches, curses and demons escalated.

It got to the point where I was frightened. Keep in mind I had known her for some years at this period of time. In the earlier stages I listened to some of her curses talk and went along with it, which I am kind of ashamed of now.  When I look back, I still have many of our emails, she seemed to be a kind concerned friend for many years and then things just go crazy. While she is telling me some of this stuff, I am even arguing against a lot, but she never listens. She has no spirit of self examination nor of correction which should have served as a giant red flag to me.

I wrote her this too:

 I know I sent you that one verse from Proverbs some time ago where curses that are undeserved are not delivered. I am not telling you that you are doing anything wrong but to consider some of your conclusions. We must all test ourselves. When spiritual matters have become a source of pain one needs to step back and question why and how. We need to keep a balance in our lives. I feel like things were getting unbalanced. I am asking myself now if I have balance in my own Christian life.

I tried warning her, and telling her she was going down a bad path....I wrote this to her too.

  "I know that people can get into deliverance work and sometimes get led into some extremes. Think of those Ghana people who take things to extreme and Satan leads them down paths fearing witches. Why are all the deliverance ministries so far gone? I found one by accident online yesterday that was psycho where they had prayers to Jesus telling him to bless Chakras We are in the place where we are new world order aware and God has shown us more things. That can be a place where things can get dangerous because Satan always has tricks. The Grace of God does not denote worrying about a curse coming from 20 people. I see all the NWO aware Christians fooled by the Raiders News and NewsWithViews set. I am not going to spend life fearing the occultists, or their spells." 

 Her main message to me then mutated into this: that my life was in ruins and God was not healing and blessing me, because I was refusing "deliverance". At one point, I told her no more on the deliverance writing her a letter saying it broke down boundaries between friends, but I should have walked away then. She did not let up. Towards the end, she grew wickedly abusive, and told me, "You are going to die now because you refused deliverance and waited too long" Things got very scary, I felt threatened and like she was doing back handed messages. The last day I ever had contact with her she called me up and said, "A death curse in the mail has been sent to you by your family. If you touch the envelope you will immediately die". I was fed up by that point and made a joke, I said "Whats going to happen to the mailman?" and "What if I reach in and don't see it?" I then said, "That's enough", hung up the phone and never talked to her again. I ended a online "friendship" that had begun in 2002, when I was newly saved.  She never was a friend.

This person horrifies me now. The depth of evil was great here. I do believe they could have been a disinformationist and waged a campaign against me of many years of duration. I also notice when I was more stable, she did not do that deliverance nonsense but saved that for when my health was in a dangerous place and my financial struggles began. She told me she has had other deliverance "clients" , she wouldn't share details about them but I know they existed. That scares me. Some would go and live with her at her house. She would tell me she would take in homeless and other desperate people. This scares me for them now. My contact with her was all long distance, except for three days when she visited me and when I saw her in person, I knew what I needed to know but still took long to get away.

When I counteracted this person and stood up to them. I only got "know it all responses". There was no humbleness. They told me deliverance was only for the desperate. That those who refused deliverance which I had by that time, were "disobeying" God. They do really see themselves as spokesmen for God. They are not.

There are many wolves out there and abusive people.  People into deliverance seek power over other people. That's what it is about. Power. This one may have other worse agendas, but I believe some get a "high" just spiritually messing with people and pretending to act like they speak for God. Spiritual abuse is a serious problem out there, in the churches, among the pastors and more. I'll be frank modern Christianity is a cesspool. We are living in a time now where faith is under more pressure then ever. The wolves have indeed taken over.  Spiritual abusers love power. It's not just pastors who spiritually abuse, sometimes it can be a "busy-body" housewife or anyone else who thinks they can direct another person's spiritual life.

Don't make the mistake I did and share personal information with someone out of your own pain and suffering and desperation for relief. Be careful of would be online friends who can play games. Even in the real world be careful.  I believe she got in when I was having my serious kidney issues, and thought I was going to die soon. I was in extreme pain and very vulnerable. I had dealt with serious family issues of decades in duration. My husband has lost his career and for years we had struggled with extreme financial problems I have talked about here. My life was in tatters and still remains very troubled. The wicked will come in and kick you in the face when you are down. Don't even trust those who share their own problems or abuses always. There the wicked are merely eliciting your God-given conscience they lack to get you to "bond" with them. It is all a lie.

 Here too be careful in churches, a lot of spiritual abuses is happening even via shared prayer circles. They tell people to share prayers with each other and what to pray for and in that can elicit a lot of information on people. I noticed it in the Bible study, smiling sneers and wolf smiles over Sally's unemployed husband or Mary's drug addicted daughter. I wanted to throw up. Don't think always people have your best intentions in mind. I may write about this soon, but part of growing up as a Christian is realizing how evil this world really is. It is as bad as you suspect. Yeah I am being "negative" and all the things they brainwash you in this society about.

I struggle I really do, I believe some will fall away because some will be led by these sickening people to  think God has failed in His promises for us to have loving and comforting Christian fellowship. Jesus warned us in Matt 24:10. Many will hate and betray us. It is happening in my life and in many others. 

I remember one argument I had with her right before I ended the deliverance, this was verbal, where I told her, "Your deliverance is like witchcraft spells, say the exact right prayer and the trouble or the "demon" will be lifted". Oh if only I had seen that as the impetus to cut all ties with her at that point but I noticed that how FORMULAIC it all was, kind of like the Catholic Mass. They use fear of demons, and fear of death, and all sorts of things to wiggle in at people. They are snakes! She told me I had the "spirit of rebellion", which is one thing false pastors and other people will come up with. To "rebel" against them is to "rebel" against God. Remember one quality of Satan's followers is the extreme pride. They never admit they are wrong. The seared will never say "I am sorry" or "How can I make things better? with any sincerity.

I want you to think of the pride of someone who goes around too claiming everyone else is demonized and they are there to fix the problem.  Can someone really be accepting and a friend of someone they consider demonized to the hilt for being sick and having money problems? Sadly I think THAT is the attitude in the churches that if bad things have happened to you, it's your fault, you let demons and sin into your life. The prosperity gospel and "best life now" garbage IS the prevailing wind!

My deliverance minister told me things, like "You are the one doing the prayers, not me" when I spoke of these power differentials, but it was just all manipulation. People like this destroy people's relationship with God. They get them to see God as the demon and trouble vaniquishing ATM machine instead of the money spitting out one. They lie and tell people specific prayers will get automatic results. They tell people to deny their own God-given emotions and to deny reality about how the world really works, and that many die without miracles or solved problems. They attach a demon to everything. 

If my past faux friend was not a knowing deceiver then her own false religion got her into dwelling on the demons so much, she had them in control of everything. So wonder she feared a "witch" and a curse on every corner. One weird thing she told me was that witches could deliver curses by proxy, and hand them over a person like the mail-man or someone else they knew without the person knowing. Her knowledge of "witchcraft" and "demons" seemed based on combination of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Frank Peretti novels. I told her when I messed with Wicca in the past, I never heard of such a thing. I did learn something about myself, there is such a thing as too much forebearance and trying to be nice, when someone is weirding you out or scaring you. There is also bad things in humoring someone and "going along" to "get along". If someone talks to you about MK Ultra outside of true warnings and other weird things be careful too. While I believe those are "real" conspiracies, all we have to do is examine the life of Michael Jackson and Brittany Spears, there are "conspiracies" used to abuse people and try to bring them into an unsound mind.

2 Timothy 1:7

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love and of a sound mind.

Deliverance ministers attack sound minds. They want you to let down your guard and boundaries to let them in to control. With their false promises for better health, and closeness to God and improved lives, they are salesmen for Beezelebub, with their talk of generational curses, soul ties and other nonsense. Demons are their hench men, and the ones they want you focused on. Every fallen world problem from acne to a broken down car especially for the most Pentecostal ones, is seen as "demon caused". Insanity and mental health problems can lie on that path. If the name of Jesus Christ can cast out all demons, why do they claim their "deliverances" take months and years and years? That is one place to suspect them as wolves. Even the secular counselors now stick to only 5-6 sessions nowadays for the sake of insurance costs.

In my case, she didn't have one dime to make off me, but I got a lot of trouble for ever having met this person. I can't implore you enough stay away from all deliverance ministers. It is only God's job to "fix" you, no one else's.  Depend on God for everything.  Stay away from "Christians" who have the "deliverance" mindset towards anyone who is sick or poor. They will lead hell right to your door and destroy whatever is left of your self esteem in this sicko society.  Be careful of the desire for human companionship or loneliness or health struggles  leading you down false paths. Someone who does not accept you as you now are, is not a real friend. They are no different from Tony Robbins and Landmark Forum programs with their lying promises of earthly "happiness" and "success".  They pray on the vulnerable, the ill and the broken hearted. They don't love, they hate. 

Jesus Christ promises eternal life with Him once we are saved, not a perfect life here or being a "perfect" person, that is another point upon which their entire "deliverance" program fails.

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

Dressing Men Like Women

From Another Voice blog

"The global gendercide agenda on full display...and seen clearly for exactly what it is - an utterly perverse absolute-distortion of reality. The total effeminization of all boys and men ala Bruce Jenner and the complete elimination of the specific species of 'alpha male' is the only goal...which is a must in order to subdue the human race for servitude, as planned. Make no mistake, this is not just a 'fashion show' - it is a clear look at the planned 'fvtvre' for the 666-slave class [link] of planet earth:"

Some of those young men look embarrassed wearing that stuff.

"Fake News" is the new "Conspiracy Theory"

Control of the news is the desire of all tyrannical governments. Our news is full of lies. I guess the "solution" of the elite will be to outlaw all "fake news". CNN liars go to the gulag, Fox Liars, you're the "truthtellers" because the pendulum has swung right.  No, they all lie. The right/left games continue.

I agree with this guy except about the global part:

submitted by ohmscience

"We all know the CIA popularized 'Conspiracy Theory' during the JFK era as a means to dismiss counterviews without rational thought.
This word has been used up until a few weeks ago to cause immediate negative connotations and auto-rejection of alternative news sources.
Well, perhaps because of the vast amount of 'conspiracy theory' that has become fact, they are shifting the language to 'Fake News'.
They are hijacking our words, before our own accusations of 'Fake News' - the MSM, could become household.
They're scared, they're panicking, and they will not be able to stop this train.
It's too late for them. They are not as tech savvy as we. They do not have the same manpower as we. They can hire thousands for CTR, we can mobilize millions - we are global, we are a force.
Watch for more internet censorship bills for 'fake news'."

Imagine them outlawing fake news. Then only state sanctioned news will be allowed.  

Pastor Spraying Doom on Congregants

We read about the pastor who had his church members eating grass, and other insane things but this one is even more extreme in danger. He is spraying insecticide on them. Sober mindedness has been thrown out the window. People who are feeling in desperate need of prayer and healing are exploited by a wicked pastor directly spraying poison in their faces.

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Religious Right Christians Who Disdain the Poor

{I had someone comment basically "aw quit yer complaining", so I took this article down fearing I may be seen as complaining though my main idea was try to get people to see how America has arrived at this point. My husband had read this article--he reads all of them, and he told me later, he wanted me to put it back up. For years I have warned the religious right's disdain for the poor would worsen and would come to a bad point and it has. Trump is the outcome of what they have taught in the churches for decades. Anyhow astro-turfers, I am sick of your "god" of coldness and no emotions whose followers always makes excuses for evil.}

The poor need prayers for their oppression. Sadly the religious right, is for oppression. Many of the churches have joined with the oppressors and corrupt political system.

With these Trump protests online I have seen a lot of  people who are scared. Facebook is like one fear fest right now.   America is one of the most fearful countries on earth.

Maye this is what happens in the land of no love, empathy and the pressure to always measure up.  You are also seeing the rage of a people once prosperous who have seen their fortunes fallen.  The disabled and poor people are afraid too.  I am a disabled person and my husband has been sick, we live on the economic edge as I have admitted.  Some time has been spent soothing long distant friends in the same boat. They are posting out of fear of the future. Many of the Trump people who include the church people I talk about here, are calling them "big babies". I doubt that will get the peaceful outcomes people would rather have when one side screams at the other, "You got what you deserved.". 

Right and left are at each other's throats on Facebook. With me personally, everyone who couldn't handle the both sides are evil message, already ditched me as a "friend". I'm avoiding political discussions in the real world. I had some people express alarm to me that Hillary did not win. I nodded and smiled.  The harsh lines are being drawn. Poor on the left, "Christians" on the right. What if you are poor and Christian? 

Seeing people write things like "I have no hope for life anymore" has been sad and dismaying. The years of economic oppression and sadness have taken their toll on many Americans. Protests are rooted in human suffering and pain. Much of the church system has failed us.  People barely have been able to get medical needs met. If not for a local free clinic, my own husband would not have medical care.

Society is cracking up at the seams. Other poor people are frightened too. I believe many of them have reason to be. Economic oppression has worsened in America. Our rent is almost half of our income. The other week, we had my husband pursued for parking tickets that are 20 years old. While Christians can pray about such things there is a reason the bible warns about the "wearing out of the saints". The crushing never ends.  We don't even think the tickets are legitimate. This is life for many in America.  More people are becoming homeless and hopeless.  The ones without God, the situation is even worse for them.

 I do believe one can be poor and happy but now in America, the oppression never lets up.  You aren't allowed to be poor and happy. They want to punish you at every turn.  Life becomes a series of emergencies and shame. Ever wonder why poor people and others who fear losing their status are always so afraid in America? 

It seems the rest of the world is growing worse too. I always had the inkling the new world order was going to strip down the social ties elsewhere as well. Maybe some in the third world who have computer access can give us a report. One man from Brazil told me things are worsening there. The elite enslaving America, have already oppressed the third world for a long time. How many died in Bush's wars? You never saw any Christians but a few speak out for them.

In American society, they never leave you alone. They always tell you that you are not enough. They always have expectations you cannot meet. If you wonder why America is full of rage and the stewpot is bubbling over, think about a people who have been taught to covet via a consumerist society that shows endless things they can't afford on the television screen and who have been told the entire meaning of life is to strive and succeed.  MOST OF THE CHURCHES SUPPORT THESE SAME CULTURAL MANDATES. Why do you think Rick Warren sold so well, have a purpose, have SUCCESS! That's what my BEST LIFE warnings were about.

The latter is why they worship success like a god and why we always get billionaires and silver spooners voted into office.

For the regular person though what happens if the success never comes too? What happens if one price of poverty is that you end up very much alone and isolated? One can end up being alone from just being a real Christian but often this happens to people who are poor as well, or even who fit both categories.

Many poor people are very alone. Other cultures have more family cohesion but perhaps that is even ending for them. I don't know how other nations are but I get the feeling some people in other parts of the world still know how to enjoy life a bit though certainly worse oppressions have happened to them.  Americans have forgotten how to enjoy life. You are also seeing the rage of a nation where many who were once prosperous have fallen down the ladder.  With few things outside the baubles of the consumerist society which are taken away on a whim, American's don't have much community or other ideals to bolster them up.   Unless you are a certain status in America, it's like you are not even a person. The inner cities at least admit the system is broken but their suffering has grown greater.

 For poor American people who "fail", We live kind of a shadow existence. Often our families have put us down for not succeeding.  My family is mid-level connected and mostly all make 6 figures. They live in a whole other world. I bet people in other countries think this place has gone mad. People here are still eating after all. The right left false dance continues. "Hillary could have saved us!" [Can I throw up now?]

Many poor people are cut off while others are treated so badly and with no respect that they must part ways. Still others have massive spiritual divisions. Division has already come to some. By the way, I do have a bachelors degree in art education and also studied for a paralegal certificate before I was disabled, so when I say "fail", I mean not make money, and not achieve a certain standard of living.

It took me time to figure out how the world really worked but when I did, it opened my eyes. I've paid an actual price for going against the family religion and "values". I came out of a wicked family whom I believe are connected, however they aren't 1 percenters.  Matt 10:35 happened for me pretty quick. They all definitely sold out for the money and the wealth along the way that was attained.

 Take the numbers of Generation Xers and millennials, who are getting the same messages from successful  wicked parents, culture and family and ask yourself how the sins of many are adding up the days of rage?  How many sins of strife, envy, and lording over others has occurred? There's little love in a system where its all about competition. With this history my patience with right wingers who disdain the poor is even less.  They helped get this show on the road as well as any "god-less" liberals.

I'm a rare poor person with computer hook-up. This computer was bought for me. I've been poorer where even today would be the candy days compared to my past where I dug for food in the trash, lived in boarding houses and slept on an old mattress out of the trash. With my severe health problems, my life was not the American norm.

If the system collapses, I would not survive outside God's direct intervention. I'm old, I guess I am surprised I have lived this long.  I've been through so much already. However even I feel some worry that has been given over in prayer.  One medicine I take for my lungs, monthly costs more then most people's rent.

 I have had to go to food pantries and other churches before for charity in the community. There's one mainstream baptist church but the others are mostly Lutheran and other mainliners. The evangelical or IFB churches don't seem to offer as much help for the poor. Maybe this is one aspect of the community I live, in but it makes me wonder.  The Republicans have beat the idea into their head so often that the poor deserve their circumstances, they ignore what the Bible says.

I have noticed the more conservative a church is politically, the less they help the poor [especially poor Americans]. In the IFB, I attended for about a year and left, while they offered a few people help if they asked directly, they had absolutely no help for the poor in that church outside of a little money sent to missions.  None of them were going down to the soup kitchen like the Lutherans. Poor people didn't exist inside the church or outside of it.  This applied to many churches I visited.  It was mind boggling and that was the place that praised war and the pastor constantly repeated, "Those who don't work don't eat".

While my husband worked hard at home, he could see the jaundiced eyes at his more humble dress, and prying questions about why he didn't work a "regular job". They have no understanding that now if you get health problems but aren't quite disabled, and reach a certain age, that the job market closes you out.  Someone who can't stand for more then 10 minutes isn't able to get many menial jobs. He makes the same at home as he would at one of those.

Even that one wealthier evangelical church I went to a Bible study at, focused far more it seems on helping the globe then any poor people in America as they live in wealth. There wasn't one non-middle class and above person there. The attitudes against poor people frightened me.  Many humble bragged and spoke of people "needing to get their lives together". I have seen such type of Christians go on about the poor saying things like "Why don't they just get a job and stop being lazy?"  If they treat me this way, I'm kind of scared for the third worlders they say they want to help.

Some of their relatives were poor and "embarrassments" to them. They talked about them like my family spoke of me. One woman went on about a sister or daughter who was "not living right". I didn't hear any talk of sin, drugs or crimes just poverty. I had the thought that this was often in the hands of others denying them good jobs. One woman bragged about having foster care children and adopting them. Maybe I am a cynic knowing if you have a big enough house that passes CPS approval, that's 800-1000 bucks a month per child. Another one, bragged about her three years in Honduras. I didn't relate to any of them.

  For years I have written against the religious right wing's hatred and disdain for the poor on this blog: 

  Worldly Attitudes Against the Poor

  What Being Poor in Church is Really Like

  Add This to the Right Wing's Hatred of the Poor

  Do What Jesus Said About The Poor: Not the Religious Right

  Poverty in America With Churches Even More Out of Touch

 Preachers Blaming the Poor for Debt

  Liberation Theology: Exploiting the Poor for Globalism

  The Failing Economy and Trusting In God

  Mean Christians

  None of Them Will Tell Us the Truth About Poverty

  Oppressing the Poor for the Globalist Agenda

Having written about these things for years, things have grown worse. I was a lone voice in the wilderness especially on this issue.  I have yet to see it anywhere else. This blog parted from the norm on this one issue alone. No one else took up this cause unless they presented false leftist solutions as the answers.

Others who shouted the same thing always had the false answer that the Democratic party would save us all. Yeah right!  The economy has grown worse. Ten years of being poor and seeing fortunes evaporate and hope lost for THIS LIFE has taken a toll on me. I am still a human being with emotions. Some may ask me to be some stoic, but that's not me. Let the sociopaths and stoics, have their pod personalities and coldness that tells everyone to just "suck it up". I have noticed too many "Christians" with that mentality. They tell us things like God assigned us evil leaders and that even if we are poor, we need to never complain and shut our mouths about everything.  I know it, and I am just one of millions. 

Yes there are Christian churches that help the poor, I have been helped by them and Christians who do so. However I have realized with the last right wing push back and support of Trump when one hears sneering about the "free sh*t army* [sorry to put a curse word here, but that is what they call it]  it is tiring. 

It's the days of Bush all over again but upped a few notches.  Bad pennies always turn up in this world. The wheel goes round and round  until God puts a stop to it all.

The religious right has screwed over the country yet again. Not to say Hillary was a solution either, but the success in brainwashing the Christians of America has already brought suffering to us all and will bring more! This one promised populism and jobs but when he puts someone like Paul Ryan in to destroy the few security nets there for the poor, one can see where this is all going.

Many of us poor have wearied of being the scapegoats in right wing circles. The constant blame on the poor as being the reason everyone's taxes are so high and articles on how the millennials need to quit whining [most don't have jobs to form decent lives] you know something has gone very awry in this country.

 Outside the charitable churches, who mostly held theologies far more liberal then my own beliefs, I have felt years of "judgment" among religious right wing Christians, who saw their comfortable homes, and lives as being "blessings" they all deserved.  The poor will get judgment if they smile too much or if they decide to be poor and happy--and told they are "not trying hard enough" or that they are "not responsible" enough. On the other side, if they complain, they will be told they have not trusted in the salvation of God, and that they are lusting for the riches of this world and are in sin. The poor can't win trust me on that one.  Church becomes for many poor, a place where you hid your true socioeconomic class or a place where you become an object of pity.  One often is put under "correction" even if far into adulthood or their morality is questioned.  The evil teachings of Calvinism affect the view of the poor in America, that would take it's own post and article to explain.

Often I come here and pour things out of my heart and I get the "rigid" queens of holiness and righteousness always browbeating me. That gets tiring. They think they are perfect. One thing I have notice is they never admit one emotion. Their lives are always in perfect order.  They always seem to tell anyone with any feelings or emotions to shut up. 

We have a nation of economically oppressed people, and well they are upset, some are scared and some are just sick of it all.  Sadly many go running right to the false answer that the leftists will save them even after 8 years under a liberal president where fortunes have fallen. Some voted for Trump just to get ANY change at all. I heard some even say "Let the apocalypse come". The churches in joining with the powerful have become ALLIES to these oppressions, and no I do not mean this in the leftist way, I mean this as a FACT.

In shock, I found myself telling someone, I avoid church ladies because so many are two-faced and I sat back and thought,"I don't want the white picket fence brigade beating up on me anymore, I got enough of that from my family." Yes, I question myself on these thoughts, much of what I went through was painful. I'll be honest and admit, it's one reason I won't be returning to church too. If you come to this blog and start that stuff, I will be more liberal now in erasing your posts. Why put up with it. I still wonder how many fakes come here just to harass?

Where has compassion and empathy gone? I see now the same Republican push-back, where they want to shove the disabled, and poor into far worse poverty yet again. Obama was not exactly helping either, continuing Bush's programs and expensive Obamacare but now the gloves will be off on the poor once again. One of my old IFB church members posted this:


It's nice your husband has a great job, to even pay taxes but those who cheer for oppression and everything being expensive, don't realize how they have been fooled?

 Hmm how many "free" bennies do the elite get?

  And if people have no jobs, to pay their bills? 

Why is the religious right answer then, go to the gutter , "we don't want to hear about it"?  I actually have been seriously told to my face by several Christians, social security should be done away with, as well as Medicare and all welfare. Yes I know there are limits on government programs. They scream 'socialism" and then provide NO OTHER OPTIONS for the poor. I am sick of it.

There's a reason the country is going into protest.

Selfishness and sin on both sides, has produced this. Greed fueled it. A society pushing nothing but STRIVING and COMPETITION did it too and the failed religious right church system that basically told the poor, "Suck it up, You're to blame, you're a loser and a failure for not having a good job!", did it as well.

As far as being poor,  I am used to frugal living, cooking beans, and sitting in the park for recreation, it was all the other nonsense, the judgment, the ostracization,  the meanness, the constant drum beat of "you need to fix this" while handed no tools and seeing a husband thrown away due to health problems and age from the job market. I know the prices I paid in this world for not selling out. I got the biggest prize in salvation. This however does not mean I will be someone who will help in the oppression of the poor as more and more false "Christians" decide to line up and willfully bow to evil and tell us we should too.

 I've gotten a little tired of it all.

In my case, I'll pray and not go riot in the streets, but the rest of the country may not make the same decision. 

They are a bit worn out and I see these religious right "Christians" as being a MAJOR PART of the problem.  We've had decades of anti-poor rhetoric in the churches, the focus on success or else and now you are seeing the outcome of it all.

Does God Install Evil Leaders?

Just like the church system mutilates Romans 13 to preach blind obedience to authorities, I think, the idea that God installs evil leaders is another false teaching. Satan is the prince of this earth. Is God "choosing" Satanic Illuminati chosen leaders? It doesn't make sense. Some say He does this for Judgment and maybe this is allowed, but to see God as an author of evil, doesn't work either.

I like what James, a commenter on the blog wrote:

"I know that God is capable, and does place who he wants running over the nations if he wants, but wasn't it Satan who offered Jesus Christ the kingdoms of the world if he would fall down and worship him? I do not believe that God is responsible for the mess that is taking place in this world. It was man who first imagined things that never came across the mind of God. God, being ever rightous and ever good from everlasting did not invent the evil that's in this world. I have a hard time accepting that God put evil rulers in place, since Satan is "the god of this world". im betwixt the two. I know Gods ways cannot always be understood by man, but it's still tough for me to believe........James"

Hillary was an evil would be leader as well, no doubt of that. Some do hope in Trump and I know there is the human tendency to want to believe in some real change and more optimism, but in my book the global elite are what they are and we will not see the true change wanted on this earth and for this life. The default of history is always nations succumbing to further wickedness.

Anti-Trump Protests Spread

I notice they have the Jesuit-face masked people in the crowd. I warned on here as many others did too, that this election was going to bring "unrest". Half of Facebook is proudly announcing wearing "safety pins" and posting hashtags of "Not my president".  That is unprecedented. People are afraid and upset. This country has become one messed up place. I said to someone, "What if you are on neither side?", there's like this pressure to choose a side. Many are clamoring for wicked Hillary to be "reinstated" and that the "electoral college" should be dismantled, and her put in for winning the "popular" vote.

Romans 13:13 "Let us walk honestly, as in the day; not in rioting and drunkenness, not in chambering and wantonness, not in strife and envying"